rec trip to notl

went for a drive with melissa and her daughter, avery, of the rec group to notl. stopped for coffees and donuts at tim's.

_skinny legs and all_

i'm on page 88 of this novel.

the first hot, sweaty day

i stayed as still as possible in my room, but i did get out for a bit.

restricted isolation

i'm in restricted isolation. i'm not supposed to be here.

_the brain that changes itself_

karen bought me the brain that changes itself by norman doidge, m.d.. i'm on page 83.

faith

"'Faith isn't an act of intelligence, it's an act of imagination. '"
--Mary Magdalene, Lamb, p. 394.

can't add open source

this is a proprietary windows system, and a locked down pubic terminal; i can't add any open source software :( .

got moved, got dislocated

i'm in the East now. we're under an outbreak, and i'm not supposed to be here, but i gotta stay up-to-date or go crazy.

feeling more on top of things...

...right now.

feeling stoned

i saw 'jerry maguire' several years ago, and i thought it was a pretty crazy movie. i was stoned, then. i feel stoned, now, though it's been years since i've had anything.

p&j visit

p&j came to visit. we went out to the healing garden, then up to my room to trim my fingernails with the scissors.

julie brought me books

julie brought me books: tom robbins' skinny legs and all, and christopher moore's lamb: the gospel according to biff, jesus' childhood pal.

existentialist thinking

what is the latest development in existentialist theology? is it purely a matter of faith? does faith lead one to other non-existentialist questions?

red saucer posts

i figger my longer rambles deserve their own mis-space

emerging theology

emerging theology purports to encompass left and right, but the extremists won't be happy. am i an extremist?

insanity contained, almost!

this morning, still in bed, i thought i had a grip on this. then my roommate started on the phone, and i lost the centre of my being. it's as if i can contain it within myself i'm okay, but if i have to account for others, it's beyond me. nothing like sleep deprivation to screw me up!

rough day

• the music group was not very good, but it was outside and sunny
• we're in isolation again, but it made me think
• did drw ever recover?
• what of it?if he did, will i find his answer, and will i like it?
• if he didn't, does that mean i won't?
• faith may be the only thing that saves me, tho' perhaps not in this world....
• are there any indications? signs? am i truly, permanently, deeply mad?

i think i see a pattern....

another crack in the reality wall

by the time i get here, i forget the all-impotant whatever that i was going to blog about!

this time it had to do with another crack in the reality wall--a wall that contains me, but beyond which i can see.

i didn't blog yesterday cuz i moved next door. i'm in room 153.

if left alone long enough, i'll go places inside of me i shouldn't! 'don't go in there alone!' i was warned, but what are my choices?

actually, i've been doing really well this morning knowing where reality is on the compass. it's been these last few encounters which are really upsetting. but only cuz i let them. i can expect them, which means i can prepare for them, or i learn to laugh at them.

maybe there wasn't enough laughter in our house.

questions

"But the distinguishing marks of the movement remain smallness, decentralization, personal responsibility, the personal response to persons in need in direct encounter and a search for answers to the questions that arise from that meeting: Why are there so many poor and abandoned? What is honest work? What is due workers and the unemployed? What is the relationship between political, social and economic democracy, and between these and the common good? Just where are we, where do we want to be and how can we get there? What of means and end? What does it mean to follow Jesus Christ today?

"Catholic Workers attempt to alleviate the sufferings of the poor by adopting lives of voluntary poverty in order to be free for direct, personal involvement, not so much dispensing charity as sharing in the lives of others. Voluntary poverty also frees us to respond to militarism, exploitation and racism...."

http://www.catholicworker.org/historytext.cfm?Number=4