growing confidence

[090529]
i am flouting with increased confidence the edges of this dream, but if i go to the core, i get hurt--for example, falling this morning. i just went to the bathroom with maryjo [the brunette], and while i didn't stand by myself, i did most everything else by myself. otoh, i'm really tired. this is exhausting work.

[mid-afternoon]
is this a huge case of denial? no, i think i'm being realistic. my downfalls: i fell this morning, my left hand still lacks pressure-sensitivity; i can handle so much reality. my pluses: i walked further this morning; i'm typing with two hands; things are generally going my way.

[early evening]
now, i feel this is reality, and my brain is playing tricks on me. see how my thinking does an about-face during the course of the day? what am i going to do?

long pause....

as i did during the abi meeting, 'stay the course,' plan my work, and work my plan. right now i want to plan my work in the cool of the evening. but what i'm going to do is sit tight this weekend, and take my own advice, planning my work and working my plan...